okay.. first and foremost.. let me complete the unfinished tale of the 笔中仙 chapter before further complains… haha…
so i met MR to 三清宫 to receive my mission.. and !!! i never receive my mission lor… its probably due to some missing procedures… so cut the story very very short… because it was a chop chop session so not very much to share on it also…. whether the chapter continues or another begins… i have no idea either… i just continue practising…
i sat back thinking of my past year… till date.. im probably 1yr and 2 months old in ling xiu… and with the recent Q&A session on FB with MR… really made my brains work very hard.. lol…. these are some thoughts i gathered…
i’ve gotten into a healthy lifestyle of waking early and sleeping earlier… even my eatin habits have changed… i’ve also managed to keep my daily meditation routine in check… well congrats on that to myself… i can feel my ling energy grow tremendously.. i have better 感应 and stuff.. great… but something seems to be missing after all… i’ve come to a point where i have probably reached a cross road.. i dont seem to be going anywhere… or should i put in layman terms.. i feel stuck….
have any of you ever wondered…. why are you cultivating? i find myself facing this question finally…
MR once told me… my biggest obstacle in cultivation will be the word 情.. relationship, friendship, kinship and whatever sort of 情… but i never really put a thought into this… honestly.. i never seriously thought about why im a cultivator… or rather… why would i be in LZT…
sometimes i think back on my past actions… are you guilty of just nodding your head and saying yes? or have you seriously thought about what has been taught to you? or you think you know what you are doing? i think ive finally found an answer somehow…
my biggest obstacle indeed is 情… not just the above mentioned… but also the relationship between me and the LZT-ians.. MR and all the brothers and sisters… 情 would probably also lead to me being emotional or at times egoistic.. because the word 情 often revolves around the word 我…. so i think i kinda understand this theory… but how well can i cope with it? yet another story….
other than MR’s analysis… im quite sure now that i am not born to this earth this era for fun… i know i have missions and tests ahead waiting for me… but yet im still not very stable… there are many things i wish to achieve.. but yet i cant overcome myself… even if i did… i cant say for 100% that the next time i could do it again… but at least im clear now why i am a cultivator… i have unfinished business…
judging from my “performance”… i have only one conclusion… 行改心没改，等于什么都没改… i have already physically done things i should do… but deep down inside there are probably some grievances… some unhappiness… some anger… its about time i trashed them out now before they rot in me… maybe thats why MR says im still emo and ego deep under… so now i think i know the theory… but knowing and not applying is still all talk no action…
what to do next? how to go about doing it? why i dont get the kind of 自在 in cultivation?
i doubt thinking gives an answer…. someone.. unstuck me please.. =D
just sharing some thoughts bros & sis… please feel free to comment.. =D
checking in…
BFG
P.S.: i feel greatly to do something for the people in HAITI… 70,000 has gone and probably more… what if the person was you? if you can.. please just chant some OMPH and dedicate the merits to ease their suffering… if its you… what would you wish people have done for you at least?
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stuck! hahaha… a cultivator will feel stuck when deep in him he hv some unselfless want and 执著。。
a cultivator cultivate with 平常心, and being 精进， will never feel stuck…cos no greed, no 执著, no 妄想
Comment by zacken99 January 20, 2010 @ 2:29 amMR can explain 精进 & 平常心?? how to define this two terms?
Comment by BFG January 20, 2010 @ 1:15 pm简单 一 点 。。。 dun think so much lo…
Comment by jesdes7779 January 20, 2010 @ 1:02 pmyeah sis… got ur msg… =)
Comment by BFG January 20, 2010 @ 1:16 pmJes, im so glad that u understand wat im saying
Comment by Zacken January 20, 2010 @ 1:45 pm禅心即佛,
Comment by 林喜萱 January 20, 2010 @ 2:37 pm禅心即本性,
禅心生万法,
禅心是空不空,
禅心无相,
禅心无念,
禅心是平常心
“精进”，精是专精，进是进步
进步是好的，最重要的是要精进。
精是纯而不杂。
“一门深入”，才能够成就。
想要门门都学，是绝对不可能成就的。
门门都学，那是一门成就以后的事，
Comment by 林喜萱 January 20, 2010 @ 2:42 pm一门成就了，其他无量法门一看、一听, 当下都通达了。
thanks sis… that was a brilliant explanation..
but the problem is this… “进步是好的….”
but “a cultivator cultivate with 平常心, and being 精进， will never feel stuck…”
so when i feel stuck.. i feel like i never 进步… but then again, feeling stuck is wrong…
i dont understand whether seeking for improvement is a kind of “when deep in him he hv some unselfless want and 执著”
so i asked.. can explain 精进 & 平常心?
is 平常心 simplifying your thoughts so you dont have unwanted thoughts against others?
is 精进 = 精是专精，进是进步? so if i am seeking for 进步 is it “when deep in him he hv some unselfless want and 执著”…
Comment by BFG January 21, 2010 @ 1:42 amHaha so u r full of qn n doubts isist???? Come do me personally
Comment by Zacken January 21, 2010 @ 2:13 amlol.. MR.. sorry but yes.. i duno why i like keep banging wall like that.. lol… i will ask you out for coffee this few days… thanks for paying attention to qns! 感恩 =D
Comment by saintromeo January 21, 2010 @ 2:17 am行改心没改，等于什么都没改… why need to change? why?why?why? cause its wrong… so we need to change but changing of action alone is not the correct change … the change must be from ur heart… then the change is wholesome… changing of action alone is not wholesome but its the min a layman should do… we as Ling xiu zhe is not acceptable…
Ok lets come to the 2 words mentioned… 精进 & 平常心…
(Personal Opnion)
平常心… In layman term 平常心 is == 平日正常的心。。。 but what does this means to me… 平常心==
自在。。。 not just 自在 but its 无可求无可望的自在。。 But 自在 doesnt means 不做也不是selective 的做。。。 自在里面要有戒律。。。 戒律is in place to make sure one dont do the wrong thing and go the wrong way…
精进… if mere searching the meaning can explain everything then its a pure insult to the profoundness of chinese… one must understand the meaning within and not just the surface meaning… Just like thousand if not millions out there proclaim that they know the 12 经典 buddha had left behind written by 阿难尊者but how many really understand the meaning within those papers… To me… 精进==continuously searching for wisdom( on paper meaning is quite like that) BUT why do u need to continuously search for wisdom??? Because u want to learn more? because u need to learn more? because learning more == teaching more? learning more == knowing more??? what is what??? we need to continously search to open our wisdom as we acknowledge 我们的无知 i think this is basic we must first acknowledge our lack of wisdom thats why we need to learn all others stated above are just byproduct… With the wisdom we then show the way to those who have yet reach there but never any intention to show off or use the wisdom to bring one to higher grounds… learning one will lead to another but inbetween must never have any 执著 to learn…
Above is just my humble view… Hope I am right about this…
Comment by nssdom January 22, 2010 @ 2:44 amthanks bro for sharing your views.. its definitely beneficial to all of us… such discussions is definitely fruitful..
my reply to ur post:
yet still.. wanting to improve and 执著 might just be drawn by such a faint line.. like what they always say in army… “the diff in being garang & plain stupidity is just a thin line..”
i sat back and thought thru again.. the motive behind improvement should be? wanting to 脱离六道…?? or in ling xiu case.. to complete our mission or tests.. ?? then thinking back again… having an ultimate goal is it a kind of 执著 or even ego? maybe thats why we need 平常心.. and 平常心 might just be 老老实实，一步一脚印.. 随缘随喜..
eagerness vs being keen… similar meaning but can make a whole lot of diff.. maybe im seen as being too eager instead of being keen..
i guess maybe what i’m missing here is the word “balance”…
Comment by saintromeo January 22, 2010 @ 11:11 amBro, May I ask what is ur purpose for Xiu Xing? Sms me the answer if u find putting here might not be ok…
Comment by nssdom January 22, 2010 @ 12:29 pmi’ll meet you out for coffee… if i text you or wrote here.. i face a big possibility of being misunderstood…
diff people got diff levels of understanding.. and i dont wish to be a stumbling block…
i can jokingly text.. “you are stupid”
Comment by saintromeo January 22, 2010 @ 1:56 pmbut you can take it as an insult.. get what i mean? =D
Hi Bro Eugene,
Just my 2cents comments
1) Having a Goal/direction/wish or reason to cultivate(Eg.exit 6 realm) is not equal to 执著。
- It provides you with a clear direction of where you want to go or achieve.
Example, you start your engine, but you don’t know where you want to go.You will drive round & round going nowhere or sit inside car & think..
After having a goal, do you 老老实实，一步一脚印.. 随缘随喜 to pursue or you 不择手段,find shortcut,要一步登天, and keep wanting to increase to level 99
Example, you are in Sec 1 and 3yr later taking O Level, do you go through sec 2,sec 3 and sec 4 to build up your foundation to take your OLevel or you straight away find all means to take OLevel the next year?( Sorry, cant think of any other analogy)
2)When the time is ripe, mR will let us know certain things, will teach us certain things. Don’t need to hurry, Don’t need to chase after it.
3) Do you feel anything when your Junior who learn more things than you or faster than you?Do you feel stagnant? or You see Mr A has this Ability A, you also want to learn that Ability?
4) Doing SOP/Homework daily if not regularly is already improving everyday.Maybe you perceive that you had not learn any new things for 3months/6months, you are not improving?
5) How I cultivate? Do what mR teach, nothing more.因为我相信该教的时候，他会教，该知道，他会让我们知道, 所为用人不疑，疑人不用, 他所教的，从不疑问. 以平常心和平等心来待同修
Comment by keagan January 23, 2010 @ 12:06 amthanks bro.. after the small chat with you, you actually remembered all my qns.. this is definitely a straight forward and clear cut answer!! thank you so much! =)
as for a reply:
1.) totally agree with you.. though 不择手段 and finding short cut never really crossed my mind.. but maybe like u mentioned.. im too much in a hurry…
2.) thanks for the reminder.. agree.. dont have much comments on that..
3.) erm… honestly.. i never felt anything about my junior learning more things or faster than me.. in the first place.. i never treated anyone as a junior.. im not so much of feeling stagnant and not improving.. and when i talk about improving.. i aint talkin bout 法 or energy level or knowledge.. i’m just refering to my ownself… to be exact.. my heart.. that’s why i made the comment 行改心没改，等于什么都没改… talking bout abilities.. not of my concern also… because i understand and accept this theory… 一切在于缘起… this is what MR taught and let several of us read… if my brothers and sisters really think i have a big issue on this.. i will contemplate it during this break.. maybe my pride is too much that im blinded by it… but i would also say… dont have means dont have… never means never.. =D
4.)i think i explained in point 3.. i dont really mean improving in that sense.. like i said in my post.. i have felt “improvements” in several ways but just my heart… coming back and thinking about it these few days.. maybe i don’t recognise the changed self.. or maybe because of my inner ego.. and maybe i am going through a period of self denial… MR once mentioned to me… what is the chinese word 我？its actually 找 plus one stroke.. so its that one stroke that makes 我.. or is there no 我 in the first place.. why need to 找 that one stroke to make 我?
5.)remember i asked you the question.. how you be so 自在 and happy in cultivation? from your philosophy.. i got my answer.. i agree with what you said totally.. in fact if you checked with those who really know and understand me.. its obvious that im trying.. and maybe just so.. im not doing it well enough yet.. thats why i dont get that kinda 自在 and happy…
and also bro im happy you shared.. maybe a lot of cultivators will benefit from it.. and from your philosophy i realised my 心量 is not very big.. haha.. maybe thats why when sis vel did healing for me the pipe connecting to my heart chakra was like a straw!! hahahaha… my attitude towards 忍辱 still sux… really got some work to do!! haha..
thanks bro.. im really glad u shared and we met for lunch!
Comment by saintromeo January 25, 2010 @ 2:36 pmKeagan .. I only got 3 words to say ..
wee u wee!
Comment by 林喜萱 January 25, 2010 @ 2:40 pm