My Cultivation Journey

Chapter 4: 笔中仙 (Part 02)

i was very tired this very day and was lying on the sofa sleeping… i was so tired i could feel my jaws were opened and i was sleeping in a very unglam way… i remember it was about 11 plus 12 at night… the living room light was on and i thought i will take a short nap before practicing/meditation… my sleeping posture was one leg up and one hand stretched out dangling in the air…

for an instance.. i wondered.. why does my hand seem to be holding something… it got heavier and more obvious.. and it felt like a kind of whip… in my state of half sleep and half awake, i was quite sure my hands were moving like DG.. and i thought i saw 黑白无常 smiling at me and keep putting that whip thing on my hand… at first.. i ignored and told myself.. im too tired… that hand that was holding the whip i changed the position to put on top of my head.. but it just kept getting more and more prominent… this carried on for 30 mins till i couldnt go on sleeping..

i took a few steps to my 大伯公 & 土地公 altar with a pen and paper and knelt down and hands in prayer position and told them.. yes.. if you have anything please tell me and i will write it out… or is it you want me to meditate first before going to sleep… i tried to 运灵 and tried to write.. but cannot..  i was still in a daze and wasnt very serious and soon after a while.. i realised my attitude wasnt very right..

i quickly went to wash up and brush my teeth and cleaned myself.. sat in front of the altar again and meditated for bout 25 mins.. then i asked politely for the message and i allowed the energy to carry my hands to write…

this was what i wrote..

then it followed by this….

sorry i had to blur this as MR instructed me not to show anyone.. this so happened to be a set of 茅山术… and i was also instructed to practice this… then……

the second line was after i wrote the first part.. i asked 大伯公 where… then i wrote.. and it carried on writing a 3rd part and “signed off” with a talisman looking..

after this very day.. my life changed… every day.. i have to bath with sea salt or flower water or yin yang water until clean clean… dressed like PAP election.. and practice this 法 for 1 hour for 49 days until i go to the temple… i was warned of potential trials and temptations which i am already facing…

MR warned me of 3 DON’Ts i must observe.. 无自我, 无自私, 无自怜…

无自我 – no ego.. no pride.. selflessness.. no individualism…

无自私 – not only literally means not being selfish.. also means not to have prejudice or 私心..

无自怜 – no self pity.. no negative thoughts…

in this 49 days.. i must observe my speech, thoughts and actions…
being a practioner of 笔中仙法.. i must be very aware.. must really be very 自在.. free from being emotional… when i write… i must not have personal thoughts.. i must be very very opened and receptive and free… free from suffering and emotional struggles.. free from 人性… free from anger… and what not…

my personal view: i’ve went thru this stage before.. and probably now i am going thru a test to see how well i fare.. all the dont’s are all attacking my biggest weaknesses.. i will not be 执捉.. whether i pass this test or not… whether i get to do my mission or not.. i’ll take it as another learning phase…

from my previous experience.. ive grown and realised… so today.. i will do my best!! although the focus is usually on the results.. but i should not forget the lessons i go through!!

and to MR.. thanks for reminding me, watching me and supporting me always…
thank you also for working with all the Earth Deities to help keep watch on me…
i will try my best to be mindful and aware… =)

jia you!! jia you!!

Cheers!

BFG

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