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i thought i write this before i forget.. jus a very coincidental morning.. haha…
later then i post on my last week’s cultivation…
firstly, i had a damn interesting dream!! can film into movie!! i remember clearly that MR and myself were on a very special mission… then i vaguely remember bro kelvin was there too and some pple from LZT… we went to thailand and someone was being cursed!! then (forgot the details) next scene i remember was MR was holding a baby about few months old.. but this baby looks damn wierd.. the baby has very long hair like a normal long hair girl and had big bloodshot eyes and i believe it was a her… the surprising thing was that i was not scared wor.. then MR carried her in her hands and we started to prepare for some ritual.. that was when i remembered bro kelvin appeared.. i was tasked to go set boundaries when i saw a man ( a dark arts master or voodoo master ) eavesdropping MR’s instruction and he wanted to do something to harm MR.. then bro kelvin and i had to face off with that uncle while MR doing ritual in the room.. then i cant remember but quite fun la.. hahahahaha….
i woke up at 630am this morning still fresh from the dream.. but the strange feeling i had at the moment i opened my eyes is that someone is backstabbing or doing something to MR and something will happen to him.. then there is going to be some conflict in LZT.. the gut feeling was strong but something told me to just observe.. as usual i guess i am thinking too much ba.. hahahhaha.. at the same time.. i realise how important is the family value in LZT.. watching each other’s back and all… wierd dream.. lol..
then i thought i slept a while more.. but dont know why i woke up 10 mins later.. so after washing up.. i lighted an incense.. did my 供天 and did my meditation… it felt good wakin up early in the morning.. its like i woke up and i hello hello to the 皇天在上， 众佛，菩萨，神仙， 龙族 & 各大王.. and they hello hello back to me.. haha…
i went to carry on my chores as usual… cleaning the car.. making the bed etc… sibei auntie stuff as my maid went back already.. so i have to help my mum.. while shifting out the car for my dad to move out.. i saw a super big eagle on the roof.. a real one.. not halucination.. i horned my dad and ask him to look also.. it is about say…. 0.7m to 0.8m tall.. bout the size of a 1 year old or 2.. but really huge and majestic.. and maybe thinking too much again.. i decided to count the fingers and its was a middle bad omen… haha.. sorry ah.. i very layman today.. its just a coincidence..
now only 9am.. lets see what interesting events follows up!! hee hee hee….
i better go now.. gonna be late for work!!!
cheers!
BFG
Filed under: my life
just went for coffee earlier with shifu and bro kelvin and realised how layman i have been all these while… these are some thoughts i’d like to pen down before i forget again..
after shifu’s explanation.. i think i am starting to get the meaning of 修行 and the direction we are heading into… shifu mentioned i 好不容易 then get back on right track.. dont go the wrong path again.. he then explained and cleared my doubts and misunderstanding on Buddhism & Ling Cultivation… i will bear in mind that 灵修 is not and never a religion and Buddhism is our method to practicing 灵修…
today i write this post to serve as a reminder… today’s chat made me realise why i am still so layman.. i sat back and thought for a while.. mainly it is because i am not spending enough or quality effort in my 静坐 / 禅坐… without spending quality time and effort in meditation.. it is very hard for us to 悟 and to find or develop our 道性.. i have always 以为, 认为, 觉得 that meditation is just to quieten down your heart and charging your ling energy, opeing chakras etc etc… recently shifu mentioned that meditation also help us synchronise our ling and body… i believe the fruit is the 禅定 and the opening of our 道性 and wisdom/ 智慧… and all the rest are positive and beneficial “side effects”… this is why shifu always mention meditation is our bread and butter.. so now then i realise 5/7 for a week.. is nothing… you need to eat and shit everyday… your soul also need… why deprive it… sigh….
when shifu speak.. i seem to understand what he is trying to say.. but understanding it verbally isnt good until i actually practice it and put it into action… today’s conversation also made me realise everyday is a test of what we are practicing… how we practice our mindfulness.. how we keep the LZT 5 precepts + 5 to-dos or rather the LZT ten commandments..
i am certain this path ahead is difficult… and what i am tasting might not even be the beginning… but i am determined to finish this… hope i can change this 三分钟热度 kind of stupid attitude and dilligently do what i am supposed to do… there is no free lunch in this world!! and dont expect to reap what you never sow!! WAKE UP BFG!!!
BFG
*for shifu’s monitoring and personal recording purposes only*
Oct Week 01 (28/09 – 03/10)
score: 5/7
this week we did the 35 buddhas confession with together with the rest.
on sunday i was told by shifu that i had some negative energy in me and was unsuitable to do healing then.
according to shifu, there are 2 possibilities. one of which is my own thinking and my heart. the other is that the asura likes me.
that night i went back and did my meditation, i asked myself why this is happening to me.. so i came to a conclusion that this can actually happen to any one of us.. when one’s mindset or feeling is negative or not firm.. it is very easy for a foreign spiritual being to “use” or to affect us. if we are not mindful and always keep ourselves checked, we will be prone to “tuning to their frequency”. so my conclusion is that we must be mindful of our thoughts.. our 言行举止.. always be aware and mindful.. always remember to 时时勤拂拭..
i also realised an interesting fact about DG.. as i had some problems with my pride and ego i became very conscious about my DG.. maybe till the extent whereby my actions are very controlled and intentional.. that is so WRONG! that night after bro Andrew & Keagen shared with me on how they did their DG then i realise how 不自在 i was.. movement too big scared people say i fake.. movement too small then is controlling.. then HOW?!
these are some of my thoughts and how i tell myself to do.. hope you find it useful.. don’t need to compare.. its just my point of view.. just take it as a reference k? also please feel free to comment and add more pointers to help each other improve..
My 3 DONTS..
Firstly i told myself to DON’T CARE.. “bo chup”.. ignore others and what they are doing.. ignore the surronding.. focus only on feeling your own energy…
Secondly, DON’T look for it… it comes naturally but its not as though you are a baby and some one is holding you step by step..
Thirdly, DON’T GUESS YOUR ACTIONS!! it can be punches, kicks, taiji, dance whatever… don’t put an image in your mind..
A correct DG done properly will help you exercise your body properly, clear all blockages and even cure illnesses! sometimes when you are tired or stressed, you can try doing DG, it also clears your mind and helps you feel more energized.. it should be very carefree.. very relaxed even if its very strong..
if i were to sum my DG experience i would say its like tuning to a radio… Eg. FM 93.3… First you need to tune to FM (relax yourself and prepare your body and have a correct mindset..) Then look for 93.0… (which most of us are at the stage.. able to feel energy, able to move… ) next is the fine tuning of 0.3 (completely have faith and just let go.. Enjoy!) haha..
Oct Week 02 (04/10 – 10/10)
score: 5/7
this week i was told by shifu to go to the church i used to attend to talk to Jesus, talk to God and the angels.. which i did on Sunday… it just felt like chatting with an understanding old friend.. everything was okay.. when i prayed.. my crown chakra was jumping.. could feel a warm presence when i asked for blessings..
as for meditation, i had problems the first 3 – 4 days doing 静坐… i thought it was actually harder then GYFM… there is nothing to focus on.. just let all the ramdomness come.. only then did i realise i had a lot of 杂念.. i used to use AMTF to bundle the thoughts.. but now.. it is just putting them aside.. learning to let them come and go… only on the 5th day i felt very strong currents running through my body.. like a centipede running around.. VERY BUSY!
thats bout all for this week…
Oct Week 03 (11/10 – 17/10)
score: 5/7
皈依了!! my name is 林喜傑… such a joyful and chirpy name.. think buddha telling me not to be EMO anymore.. hahahaha… i finally finished my cds on 了凡.. its truly encouraging… and very meaningful… i will write my thoughts on it in a seperate post…
this week’s meditation was alright… able to quieten down myself much faster.. this week tried the five dragon balancing technique.. feels very good and charged… when doing the last part.. i could feel what shifu say like the soul coming out.. but i didn’t focus on it… cause scared really come out.. hahaha… the sweeping of the dragon tail can feel on my 雪山 very clearly…
when not doing the five dragon balancing technique.. i could feel energy flowing within me.. there was an extra point jumping.. not sure if its any chakra.. its below the shoulders in the middle on the back.. its always jumping… i could feel the aura surronding me.. and sometimes i feel like the space around me is spinning.. there was also some occasion i feel like the floor is moving.. but i did not bother.. just took down a point for reference..
thats bout all for these 3 weeks..
above all are all my personal point of views.. so it might differ with others.. please feel free to correct me and add on so all of us can improve. thanks!
cheers!
BFG
*for shifu’s monitoring and personal recording purposes only*
Week 03 (14/09 – 20/09)
score: 5/7
this week i remember i missed on monday and saturday.. and no excuses to give..
for meditation: before thursday ( the opening of the 3 chakras) i had normal symptoms during meditation. whenever my eyes are closed, i can see its very bright.. felt heat throughout body and throbbing in most parts and some random parts.. after the opening of the 3 chakras on thursday, i can feel the 命门 & 雪山 throbbing more actively.. but the 海底轮 very mild.. but can feel heat in all these 3 chakra points.. when i do pranic breathing, can feel heat from within the body and throbbing in most chakra points.. also completed the 10 malas of 地藏王菩萨佛号..
DG: i did self healing for 2 days as i was feeling very tired due to the bad sleeping timing.. so i did DG with the intention to heal myself and to 通 my body.. not sure is this correct but i tried and felt better.. for the 2 days that i did self healing.. the actions where using two fingers on both hands and randomly hitting several parts of my body… the rest of the day was normal DG.. still doing taiji like actions.. very slow but when doing certain circular actions with my hands, can feel the energy very strongly…
Week 04 (21/09 – 27/09)
score: 7/7
yipee!! i finally able to break my lazy spell and complete a whole week! guess its really a matter of want or don’t want after all..
this weeks meditation was pretty much the same… nothing special or extra happen.. i was also not hoping or expecting anything.. but seemed to realise a few thoughts which i will share later.. maybe in a seperate post.. but its just my thoughts.. maybe its wrong.. so please feel free to share some pointers with me.. the only thing that happened was that i remember for few nights i fell asleep but then i am awake when i am sleeping.. i dont know how to explain it.. its like.. you know you are sleeping but you are conscious… but your body is sleeping.. its like your body and you soul each got a mind of its own and functioning simultaneously… i think it happened for 3 nights… i just told myself i too stressed at work and havent been getting proper rest then become like that.. so didnt put much thought to it… whatever comes or happens.. i just try to let it pass and dont end up thinking too much.. or else end up 以为，认为，觉得 again…
oh ya.. very happy to share that i managed to meet up with Edy(sat), Kelvin, Huiling & Andy(fri & sat) to meditate together… feels very encouraging….
DG: this week there is two days i did DG with the wooden staff… basically the wooden staff will have an energy pulling my hand and i just let it roam freely.. alot of swinging around…. the rest of the days i did my normal DG with just my hands.. enjoyed each session as after that feel very fresh.. like the aches on the shoulder.. the tightness is loosened up..
Questions
i wanted to ask shifu about my DG when i was doing healing the other day ( when i was a dinosaur tearing down the building ) but after sitting down and talking to my 灵.. i figured an answer.. i dont have much questions for now maybe because recently before i ask questions, unless i am really unsure, i will just quieten down myself to think through again.. realised a lot of questions after thinking through again is actually unnecessary..
i also browsed through all our fellow classmates blog during this two weeks.. when reading i realise i was smiling and feeling happy for most of you who have improved and those who are still trying like myself, don’t give up!! i dont know why but i feel vey happy and encouraged when it seems that everyone is also working hard and improving.. never felt like that before.. jia you every one!! =)
to all those doing 大悲水.. 3 more days only! jia you! dont give up! give your best shot!
Cheers,
BFG
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*for record’s purposes only*
i’ve decided to blog down on each lesson i attend for personal record purpose.. so if there is mistakes i can learn from it…
today shifu touched on an interesting topic mainly to do with the opening of 3 additional chakra points. if the 4th one is opened, the full cycle is called 小周天…
we started the class with shifu askin us hows our week and stuff, checking if we met any problems during the week.. then followed by some yoga warm up which is actually quite 舒服.. just that the part we have to hold our belly up is a bit breatheless.. guess it comes with much practice… during the pranic breathing + warm up.. when i take in the breathe and hold i could feel several chakra points throbbing. the crown, third eye, throat, heart and abdominal chakra… could feel the eat curry feeling that shifu mentioned in the naval area… the whole head also feel like a blood rush and feel very energetic.. guess this is what shifu meant by oxidizing our 五脏六腑…
after warm up we went into our GYFM… could feel light and warmth flush my body to the toes….
during the opening of the 命门.. initially it was hard to visualise and feel the marble.. no problems following the instructions except it took a while to visualise the ball burning into flames… i can feel throbbing and heat at the chakra point..
during the opening of the 海底轮… partially because some other chakra points were throbbing also.. so it got a bit hard to feel the exact point… only towards the end then i felt the throbbing but felt heat when the marble moved there…
during the opening of the 雪山… i could feel the marble’s heat very quickly… when shifu mentioned to melt away using the flame… i felt the tail bone area is a bit 酸 with heat… as though someone is using the finger and pressing and massaging then feel very 软… also like how Carlos 师兄 described.. like medicated oil… the heat spread throughout the back to the neck area… then during the visualisation of the fire dragon.. i could feel the dragon crawling up the spine… i felt some part of my spine crack a bit as the heat from the dragon gush up… all the way to the back of the head…
when the dragon emerge from the third eye chakra, i could feel a pressure on the chakra point and like the head got a sudden gush of energy…. after which the whole body was soaked in a warm and cosy feeling…
above are all the symptoms i felt during the practice… shifu mentioned that my face aura looks black.. so i wrote all the symptoms down in case i made a mistake somewhere…
we are also reminded not to practice this unless with shifu’s personal supervision….
during healing…
the beginning part i was doing some taiji action… feels like its getting ready some energy to do the healing.. in my mind.. i didnt have intention who to heal but only kept reminding myself i want to heal someone… i ended up healing sis vickii.. these are my observations…
i started with the head… seem to be flushing down some stuff using energy… then proceeded to her feet… don’t know why her feet seems to have some cold energy emitting out… at first only used fingers.. then followed by the entire palm… the later part moved to her abdominal area and her left hand… the feeling was using the energy around and putting it in through the chakra point then could feel the flushing… also for a while was healing her left hand… and her throat.. literally saw her throat throbbing… ended by doing some actions which looked like shaping her aura.. it was a sweeping action from head to legs… thats about it…
lesson was quite straight forward so dont have much questions except…
Qn1.) shifu.. once in a while i would use sea salt to rub my 7 chakra points to clear it… can i include the 雪山 chakra?
Qn2.) is there something wrong with me when u saw the black aura on my face? any remedies or any precautions to take??
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07/09 to 13/09.. this week’s score for myself is (5/7)… missed on tues and friday… sigh… miss again… no excuses…
as usual meditation is done in front of 大伯公 & 土地公 altar in my living room. in fact my grand father’s 灵位 is beside the altar together with my great grandfather and great grandmother. i figured it’ll be good to do my meditation there as i have a problem of 卡内阴.. so grandpa will actually be able to know what i am doing and might even assist me.
this week i added lighting a tea light as a light offering and burning a short sandal wood incense for incense offering.. also hoping to use the smell of this incense to gain more focus at the same time purifying the energy in the living room. also this week i added the setting up of a boundary for more protection on top of the 披甲护身.. this week i also spent time doing pranic breathing to quieten down myself and talk to my own soul to seek some answers..
work has been such a drag with many pending stuff that cant be confirmed and that makes me quite jittery at times often going to bed with a very heavy mind… but i realised the more i quieten down myself.. the more i seem to be able to be more focused and unclouded.. often because of our own expectations.. things will start to go wrong and also we will be affected by it.. and actually many times.. because we are affected by it.. we tend to make more silly choices.. and many times we are affected by something because we put such a high value to ” self “… its kinda wierd but it seems like i am just starting to know myself..
the other thing that i realised is that time passes by so quickly.. it is so true when they say time waits for no man…
as for meditation wise, the symptoms are quite similar to the previous week except that this week i can feel heat rising from my tail bone to my shoulders… never really felt heat on the back before but this week it seems that almost everytime i meditate it comes naturally… im quite glad as this week my focus seems to be much better.. i noticed it took a little bit longer before the first wandering thought came to my mind… vibrations as usual at the few chakra places and throughout the body..
DG is also almost the same actions just that the moves seemed to be more confident.. i kept my mind very blank so i wont be thinking my moves out.. but the actions were still more closer to tai ji and like some chinese dance.. sometimes will tip toe.. sometimes will bend and twist.. sometimes fist.. sometimes palm.. i remembered one particular night i felt someone guiding me… at some points holding my hands and correcting my posture… but i didn’t put much thought to it.. just that when i ended i said thank you if there was a 无形 guiding me… thats bout it…
other than that.. apart from meditation during my normal activities.. my body seems to be twitching a lot and sometimes can feel the heat in the palms.. the arms.. the back.. and torso area… cant remember if there was anything on the lower body… and the eyes seemed to be open even when its closed… when sleeping feels like i’m still awake..
no questions for this week.. just continue the routine..
BFG
